I really hate 'confessional' posts on forums like this - I have done it before and seen it a million times: 'oops I ate a massive bar of chocolate and loaf of bread because I have [had problems at work/at home/been ill/been on holiday etc] oops lol!'
I am not convinced it is useful, as it kind of makes it OK to slip off the wagon, and just furthers the myth that cheating is OK in some circumstances and a bit funny.
But here I am, confessing my sins like a big fat hypocrite
The long and short is that I convinced myself that I 'deserved' five pints and a Dominoes pizza (coming in at 135 syns) because I had a stressful day, 50 hour week and did well at a really important bid presentation.
Now, I just feel horrible.
I am going to try and NOT do what I have done in the past - think 'oh feck it, its ruined now, I may as well have a bottle of wine tonight' and do this instead to turn this experience into a positive one:
1. Remind myself that if I had chosen flexible syns instead of opting to try and ignore what I was eating, I could have set a limit of say 60, still had beer and pizza, but less of it (after 3 pints, who needs more?) and still saved 50 odd syns).
2. NOT try and frantically make up for it, meaning I am more likely to fall off the wagon again and give up (I did consider reverting to 'free' for the whole week). I am just going to calmly clamber back on and go back to normal. Will probably not loose this week - may even gain, but at least I will be back on the plan.
3. Remind myself that I am playing a long game - I have 30 lbs to loose, although I would like to shift some fat for my holiday in 3 weeks, loosing eventually is more important than quick gains. In the long game, this won't cause me to fail. Denying the truth, falling off the wagon and sabotaging my efforts WILL affect the long game.
4. Try and make this a positive learning experience and at least learn something from it that will make a difference next time.
Slinking off with my tail between my legs to finish the Rogan Josh in this months SW magazine.